Hold the presses! Clang, clang, clang goes the trolley! Oh my gawd! Why didn't I think of this myself!
The above line of exclamation point phrases can only mean one thing to a woman my age. But it was someone else who hit upon why my emotional volume can only be described as deafening at the moment!!!! MENOPAUSE! Yikes. This is pretty weird. It isn't as if I'm a calm port in a storm in any event. Words like passionate, intense, critical, volatile, abrasive, combative and challenging are routine when used
to describe me. So, noticing extra emotional clatter takes the trained eye of another woman who is going through the same thing. And so it was, that a new friend, who just got word that she might be
pre-menopausal hinted to me - do ya think, that you might, just might be going through the 'real deal'?
Well, this is exciting news, First, it gives me the opportunity for volumes of blogging material, secondly it is a complete vindication of the jerk I've been for a month, or two, or 10. Thirdly, I think there's a chance of redemption here. Don't ask for what, I'll get to that if it happens.
BUT, and this is the big problem. I'm a butch lesbian. Hands up any butch lesbians that happily talk about something that so evokes their femininity?
This is going to be a big deal. Watch this space!
J~
Besides the new blogging material we can pre-judge our future actions with our hormones, or lack there of, in mind ... and be clear what we're dealing with. That's my favorite part ... better to know why I'm freaking out, and tone it down (or not!) accordingly. I hate surprise ... I think you do too.
Thank you for stepping up on this topic!!
Posted by: Me | February 05, 2006 at 09:31 PM
Butch woman zigging and zagging thru peri-menopause here! I made a decision a while back NOT to be ashamed, NOT to go quietly and to be BRAZENLY outspoken about this 'transition' in my life. I'm fully engaged with and committed to my inner curmudgeon. There is nothing quite like a hot flash to either make one turn tail and slink into the background.......or ROAR into the foreground. I choose the latter.
Posted by: Deborah | November 07, 2006 at 11:22 AM